Blame it on me

My ups, my downs, my sucess my failure- with weight loss. I've always blamed everything else for my over indugence in food. Birth control and college and not knowing how to handle stress of work. But I've never actually said "This is my fault" which is funny because I was so prepared to blame my self when I reached my goal weight. I could say it was all me then but couldnt take responsiblity for it now. The mess that I am, the heavyness I have become until today. I was beating myself up in the shower just thinking,if I wouldnt have stopped or given up this time or that time I'd be skinny.

But because of college or work or any excuse I could think of. I just couldnt finish. Well today that is no more. It is January 1st 2011. And I've had enough with my excuses that run through my head. Not just in weight loss but in everything, EVERYTHING. This year I'm going to stop putting things off till monday. This year I'm going to learn to just stop and walk away from over indulgence. This year I will meet my goal of being 125 by the end of second semester. This year it is time for me to make a change in MY life and stop looking at everybody else's life. Hoping I look better off then them.

This year I want to put on clothes and feel sexy again. This year I want to make new friends and have more meaningful relationships. This year I want to work on me just for the sake of working on me. This year it is all attainable. This year there is no obsatcale, no hurdle, no leap I cannot over come.

The year of POSITIVITY,PROGRESS & SUCESS

This is MY year :)

A Commitment to Myself

Fall has arrived and as I begin to get ready for school. I asked myself what have i done, just for me? What challenge have I really accomplished just for me? And I really couldn't think of an answer. I have never done something just for the sake of me

SO i ran through ideas, of things I could do to show myself that I can stand for myself and that I don't only work hard for other people. And then it hit me. Vegetarian for just a semester. Not only should this be attainable for me, but no one will care that
I'm doing it except me.

Now being vegetarian is not a ploy to lose weight or be smaller in any way, shape or form. It is simply something that I can actually keep track of and show myself I have the will power to say no. To everyday turn down meat, will probably be a challenge especially when thanksgiving comes around. But I really believe that I can do it so I will. My semester starts tomorrow and ends December 15th. So about 4 months of being vegetarian, and who knows maybe if I like it I will continue on.

My last blog talked about me continuing to try and lose weight. That is also still a goal in my life and now I have the actual schedule to do so. I have a set-up to where I can work out everyday and not have any problems doing so. This is key to my success because I hate working out at home. I am excited for this semester and I know the time is going to fly by. I will do my best to post as often as I can, with school starting that may not be as often but I will try to keep everyone updated on how its going.


Thanks so much for following

B. Young

A New Continuation

Well well well, after the bumps and hurdles of losing weight. I had given up and it completely upset me because I got so far. But I

haven't been the same since. I can't wait to start my workouts again and get back on to a healthy diet.I will be 20 in about 5

months and i would LOVE to be at my goal weight on my twentieth birthday. Even if it means I have to hide under a rock for 4

months I will do so. I have made a schedule so that I work out everyday, between work and school. There are so many things I

want for myself but one thing I know I want for sure it to be able to fit into a pair of jeans I used to wear all the time, my senior

year in high school. To wear those jeans on my birthday or christmas day would make me so happy and no one is standing in the

way of my happiness except me. So i have to push my head and ignorance aside and do what I KNOW works. I'm telling myself to

accept the fact that it won't be easy. And accept the fact that everyone else isn't doing it because they aren't me. This is my path

and no one else's. I have to show myself I can commit to something that matters to me and actually follow through on it for me.


So feel free to check on me and see how i'm doing. I'm even posting pics, to show how serious i am. I want everyone to see my

before pics and I wanted to post it to keep myself motivated and get be able to post my after pic and be simply amazed. I was

175 pounds. Unhealthy and unhappy.

But that changes today :)


B. Young

Burst through

I finally burst through my plateau and what did i do the celebrate? I went running. Not eating, not spoiling myself with something petty. My treat was to RUN and I was so strangely satisfied with that it was almost scary. LOL I'm going to the store to get some veggies and fruit for the week! I feel good, I emailed my support system and they were all very excited for me, which left me more pumped. Im getting my shape in shape I feel AWESOME :)

I just want to FIT

I've been busy with work and with this awful weather. I haven't worked out in a week and I don't think I've eaten healthy either. I don't know. I also haven't weighed myself in forever. ugh. This blog is about me not wanting to give up but my lack luster to continue. I'm like in a total rut and I try to hype myself back into routine and I can't seem to find a way back in. I look at my clothes and jeans and say I would like to fit those. but.....

My own issue

For some reason, I got in my head that i could just quit. Like It would be okay. after being 175 and getting down to 160.8. I

thought because I plateaued I could just top and say forget it. But I realized my body wasn't ready to quit, only my mind was it took about a week of going over calories to realize, I wasn't satisfied at all. I wasn't happy eating whatever I wanted and i didn't

feel better not working out. And thats how I know I have to get back into my life style. I was silly to come this far just to give up on myself.

I'm back on track PEOPLE, I need to be back

Coming to terms

I was pretty sure, I was just about to quit trying to lose weight. Then ((BOOM)) it hit me. You've lost about 15 lbs and kept it off. Can't being stuck be a good thing? So I thought sure why not :) So I'm now okay with being 160.4 YAY.

The day before yesterday was AWESOME. (why?) because I got all my financial aid and TAXES done in one day. And if you know my mother it is not possible for her to finish anything on time. But we truly did it together.

Yesterday I over ate by like 300 something calories. But honestly, I was hungry. Not bored hungry, or emotional hungry. No, My body was actually hungry, so I ate. Now will that bite me in the butt later? possibly but I doubt it.

Today I went running, (c25k) and I put on clothes and I felt thin. Started my run and felt like an athletic person. (the person I said I could never be) and I just smiled and said wow, I feel good. Not to mention, that my body is shaping up. I realized being healthy is not in everything the scale says, its in how good your body looks and feels. The scale can catch up later. :)

Lately, everyone has been saying how they want to be thin. Thin doesn't mean your healthy and I feel like that a common misconception. Healthy, is getting YOUR shape IN shape. Healthy isn't being a size 0 or 1. For some people healthy is size 12, 9 or etc. Girls (or men) when you say you want to lose weight, know what's in shape for YOUR shape. :) It will stop half of the disappointment :)

Lastly, this blogging thing is pretty cool and when I reach my goal weight, I promise to provided before and after pics :)

<3

B.young